First Step: ADMIT that YOU have a problem.

It's unfortunate that perfectly awesome people have to go through perfectly horrible circumstances in life. This is something I would want to say to a person who was once dear to my heart.

Thanks to you I feel like I've thoroughly understood the words betrayal and disappointment tonight.
It's sad that anyone ever has to really know and feel what these two words actually mean. I am shocked, angered, and saddened by what you've done. You've not only disgraced your family, your lover, YOURSELF, but God as well.

Here is my 2 step suggestion for you:

First step to recovery is to ADMIT that you DO have a problem-a serious one at that.
Second step to recovery is to SEEK help from those who genuinely love and care for you-that would be your family, not from people who only can and will give you temporary relief.

This is a start to something new. Don't be a low life, you're not meant to live life that way. Have some integrity, pride (the right kind of pride), and believe in yourself. Believe that you can be perfectly normal, awesome, honest, and sincere.

It's gonna be so hard for me to accept you back. I can't ever see you the same way again. ever. But....I will be here if you need help. Remember, first step is to mentally realize and admit that you have a problem.